Okay... so here's the thing... I really... really... REALLY don't want to be in the school play this year and I don't know why... maybe it's a lack of motivation, or maybe just I dislike the fact that there are soooo many children in OUR PLAY!!!! Damn them because seriously they mess it up! Well.. not all of them, but most of them YES! The ugliest of things is that one time many years ago we were those children too.... ¬¬
Looking in retrospective, we were at some time obnoxious, with no focus, lack of concentration, irritating, making a lot of scandals, always wanting to be the center of attention, and... never mind this wasn't years ago it was just about 10 hours ago.
Anyway... at least the good thing is that the play is progressing at some level, so I guess they aren't much of a pain in the bum... well, YES THEY ARE but at least they don't mess up the play so whatever I will just have to stand them.
But... are they the reason I am not motivated for this play or might it be something else? Something such as the fact that something I have to produce for it is the choreographies, but the writers (because a student of IB 2nd year and a friend of mine are writing it) agreed that there will be NO DANCE in the play. Perhaps that is the reason I feel without motivation. I've been so addicted to dance lately (for seven months now...) that knowing that I won't be choreographing nothing of the school play made me feel disappointed and really without any desire to act in it as well...
But luck is tough and I have to for my IB... shame. So the character I chose was a robot called Delta One (Because D1 dance is the academy I go to study COOKING! ¬¬) Anyway... the point is I really don't know where my character will be put, neither do the writers, but it has to appear at any point. If I get lucky I'll get no dialogue, but I can get actions, because after all Acting comes from Act, which makes up the word Action. Just remember Charles Chaplin (R.I.P.)
Well, if I get lucky it'll be mostly actions rather than words, because it'll be a bigger challenge. With words, commonly one focuses more on the lines one has to say, rather than the meaning and the actions that can be done with them... but if I focus only in the actions I can improve myself as an actor. If I can transmit intentions, words, a storyline, and so on with just actions it would mean I might have improved as an actor for good luck.
Rather than acting for this play, though, I like directing. It has been something I have liked for so much time that I can finally have the time to do it actually... as everyone's rehearsing scenes, and I have (apparently) none I have the opportunity to go around and help with the direction of everyone... of course that isn't my role in this play though. Luckily, I am not (such) a bad director, I only lack certain skills such as authority, a better way to express my ideas and more control over the things I say and do.
I'm still in the decision whether or not do I want to be in the play. I have to because it is mandatory for my Theatre IB, although I am really pessimistic about acting in it. So here's the grand question I am asking to myself every day: To be or not to be in the school play this year?
though your reflections are getting a little bit better, you still don't seem to understand the difference between a "dear diary" and a "theatre journal" in which you have to register your learning process rather than your personal feelings and opinions
ResponderEliminaryou are indeed a good director in terms of ideas and creativity but you lack the skills to convince people and get the best out of them in the nicest possible way
you also have to be more proactive in terms of your character: build it up during rehearsals, in collaboration with your fellow actors
and: if you want to choreograph some dance, get the script and imagine where you could add one (it is ever changing)
so: bad final question
roberto